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Hold Fast Till Dawn [PDF / EPUB] Hold Fast Till Dawn Jenny loved Larry's sun bleached hair his dazzling smile his love for the sea and his love for her and their children Their marriage of fifteen years was as solid as the rock hard muscles that envelop Jenny loved Larry's sun bleached hair his dazzling smile his love for the sea and his love for her and Hold Fast eBook ✓ their children Their marriage of fifteen years was as solid as the rock hard muscles that enveloped her in the most intimate embrace each night Nothing could shake itNothing perhaps except the arrival of an Oriental beauty from Larry's past Ky tempts Larry with torrid memories torments him with ancient guilt and sends him and Jenny spinning into a vortex of whirlwind emotions Suddenly the foundations that had felt so stable so sure are threatened with rumblings of doubt and discord.

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  • Hold Fast Till Dawn
  • Mary Haskell
  • English
  • 18 December 2016
  • 9780515069358

10 thoughts on “Hold Fast Till Dawn

  1. says:

    Simple Realistic Honest I'm in a minority here but I liked this book A real page turnerIt is an honest unpretentious take on a husband going through a mid life crisis and cheating on a sweet loving wife No hyperbole no excessive drama no huge angst but it takes us along on this couple’s journey as they battle through a very unanticipated blast from the past which threatens to unravel their lovingly created life “Jennifer the fit has hit the shan as one character saysTheir alternate povs show us how they grow apart from a very happy very solid couple They have been married for 15 years with two lovely kids Then suddenly his teenage gffirst love explodes into their life completely tearing them apart As the H simultaneously fights guilt a past guilt for the ow and a present one for his wife lust dissipation unreasonable anger and life long morals and principals the h just watches in silent horror as her life as she knew it to be crumbles away The ow not only charms her husband but also her children and also invades her friend circle But there was no real pretense between the two women The battle lines were drawn Jenny felt like a lone soldier armed with a bow and arrow trying to take aim at an approaching tankI loved how honest human and relatable their feelings and thoughts were I can just imagine a RL long married but inherently weak selfishconfused man going through a mid life crisischeating phase just as this guy did and treat his once beloved wife so callously in the process His alternate guilt and bluster were very true to life Surprisingly I even found his unfair and self centered anger at his wife very human and realistic and it even made me smile and nod to myself The author catches all such nuances very well He was no real villain but a weak fallible man who completely lost his moorings and turned away from solid grounds to drift away in to an unreal ‘exotic’ world So read it for all this if you wish and not for romance as we expect it to beHe behaved abominably and nothing can change that Some reviewers didn't find the grovel good enough and that's true But feeling generous I can say it was kind of appropriate for the tone of the book although yes the ending should always be on a high An epilogue would have been nice tooBut still an absolutely absorbing read A well deserved 4 stars

  2. says:

    Reeder has an excellent review that covers all the plot points the racism the lack of grovel the utter lack of charm morals or self awareness of the hero I give it one star for all of those reasons but I will add one This story is boring with pointless descriptions of sailing trips dinner parties and the minutia of family meals and carpooling teenagers around Make me mad wring my heart peddle injustice but don't bore me

  3. says:

    I read after a look at the reviews so I was already aware of what to expect from our heroHe is an asshole who has a wonderful wife and two perfect children but who when he meets his first girlfriend again falls into lust and falls in love again with the exOur hero has no personality whatsoever and lets himself be influenced by the ex in a disgusting way he starts smoking again because she smokes He gets worse than a teenager in love for the first time he thinks only of her calls her several times a day lies to his wife that he is working to go out with her He humiliated his wife in public and in front of the friends giving exclusive attention to the ex and treating her as his partner he even took her to their house to meet the children and even gave a tour of the house with her Kisses at airports and make out session in her hotel room Only penetration did not happen but the cheating was doneHis son notices the behavior and asks his mother if his father is in love with the exEveryone notices his behavior He asks his wife to be patient while he decides which of the two he wants to stay with What a bastardI think our heroine easily accepted him back she should have kicked his ass and demanded a divorce“Sure I’d love to see her again”Larry was very open about everything in his past—everything except Ky KayleKy had filched from her family wine cellar had set off for an evening sail to a remote stretch of beach that their crowd often used It was a night just like this one that first time they had made love The first of many“She announced with bubbling happy gushing joy that she was pregnant”“Then why aren’t you married to her?” It was a rasping angry uestion He didn’t raise his head He just kept staring at his tightly clenched hands“Because I freaked I stammered and stuttered and backtracked I stil remember the joy dissolving and the tears starting She had assumed that I’d be as delighted as she wasKy was in the hospital in bad shape after an illegal abortion”Ky didn’t just love you she engulfed you“Larry I just hope you realize what a treasure you have in Jenny Not to mention those two children”“Larry?” He jerked upright Even after all these years he would know that voice anywhere He stared speechless at the petite figure framed in the doorway Ky Something slammed straight into his gut stopping his breath shaking his realityShe was truly breathtaking The years had refined a young freshly exotic beauty into an exuisite perfectly assembled elegant woman Her tawny skin still looked unlined and flawless; the black slightly tilted eyes stil sparkled Her ebony hair still long was pulled to one side and twisted into a sleek braid“Ky” They stood mere feet apart He felt the years dropping away robbing him of their protective shield felt the rush of familiar longing of the wild impulse to crush herto him to dissolve time to recant all other vowsLarry finally located his voice but found it barely usable “Ky you look wonderful” “So do you Handsomer than ever”How was he to discuss Jenny and his children with this old now renewed flame of his heart sitting so close reactivating urges he’d thought forever discarded?“Do I understand that you had no children?” The black eyes narrowed “That’s true I had no children I will never have any children I am unable to have children”“What now Larry?” He stepped back sharply banging his thigh into the corner of the desk His legs seemed to have lost their strength and he sank into the chair once “Now? There is no now for us Ky I’m a happily married man with two children No matter how much I regret what happened I can’t erase nineteen years”“Oh Larry such nonsense You and I have always belonged to each other We still do Anything else is a travesty”“Ky dropped into my office today dear She’s so beautiful it took my breath away and she reawakened every vestige of longing that was shoved away into the nooks and crannies of these old bones”How would I know? she thought I don’t know anything about Ky except that my husband was once madly in love with her got her pregnant and still after all these years can’t see her without getting all upset “What else do we need to do?”Why had Larry brought Ky here? He hadn’t warned her of this intrusion And why couldn’t her own children feel the desolation she felt sense the feeling of desertion she was suffering?Ky was saying to her in that low murmuring tone “You have a lovely home Would it be impolite of me to ask for a tour?”Larry seemed to arch over Ky like the protective limb of a tree and she sheltered herself in that protection looking up at him with a radiant I need you expression making him indispensable to her social success She exuded a bewitching aura and every line of Larry’s body every inch of his countenance bespoke his enchantment Jenny felt an overpowering sense of separateness Larry no longer seemed like her husbandAt what must have been close to midnight she heard Larry sneaking uietly into the bedroomLarry’s responsibility had shifted to Ky Jenny felt canceled outHe hadn’t smoked in fifteen years In fact he was known to sermonize on the subject to puffing friends But Ky smoked Sometime during the three hour lunch they’d shared on Friday he had joined her and he’d continued the companionable practice during the wait at the airport On Monday he had stopped at the drugstore on the way to the office and bought a pack of cigarettes It made him feel closer to Ky this carryover indulgencein the last few days he had lusted after another woman lied to his wife and tried to figure out how he could get away with seeing of Ky He was being torn to pieces and he didn’t know what to do about it“Bad boy I told you to go home and get some sleep when you called at ten You’ll wear yourself out”He ached for Ky thought about her every minute got aroused simply remembering their good bye kiss at the airportHe was a man possessed Nothing he did stopped the constant longing the unbelievable yearning He called Ky at least once a day and she often called him He spent time in conversation with her than he did with his own wifeHe had told Jenny so many bald faced lies that he had lost track It was difficult at times to remember what was true and what wasn’t or what story he had concocted to cover his bemusement Worse than any of the rest was the rage he often felt toward her simply for noticing his preoccupation or for asking him uestions he couldn’t answer Almost everything she suspected was true and yet her suspicions made him furious He had not made love to Ky but if there were sins of intent there was no doubt of his guilt“Jenny I’m not sure what I’m asking except that you give me some time to work it out I can’t just turn my back on her again I have to at least resolve things between us”Ky’s plane was thirty five minutes late Larry paced the floor of the terminal dimly aware of the greetings of other incoming passengers and the people meeting them His mind was such a jungle that he was incapable of hacking his way through to his own feelings After what seemed an eternity Ky’s slender form appeared at the exit She saw him and waved easing her way around“Larry” She took his hand teetering on tiptoe to give him a not uite discreet kiss His fingers grasped hers his mouth lowering to touch the offered lips They tasted sweet and inviting their teasing pressure promising erotic gifts Larry tore himself from their softness suddenly conscious of the stares they were attractingDear Lord instead of concentrating on staying faithful to his wife he was wondering how he would stack up against Ky’s other loversHe lowered his lips to hers pressing them softly tentatively then giving in to the raging hunger that consumed him The pale faded memory pictures snapped vividly into focus as every one of his senses responded to the voltage assaulting him in response to the head to toe touch of her body rubbing against his“Larry I want you so I want you to touch every part of me to kiss me in all the places you used to kiss me” She was unbuttoning his shirt tickling his chest with the tips of her nails her hips subtly gyrating their need Larry was crazy with desire He remembered all too clearly the delicious parts of that incomparable body that he had touched kissed tantalized He rememberedWhy did you come here after al these years?”“I never got over you Larry I tried to love other men”“Can you possibly have with Jenny what you have with me?”In any way at all have you been with Ky?” “Yes” “Then please sleep in the other room”Ky was flanked by Christy and Larry and Rick rapt with attention sat next to the imposing athletic figure of the mystery guest a renowned runner Jenny was in every way cut off from her family“Mom?” “Yes Rick” “He’s in love with her isn’t he?”“Did you call your lady love to chat while your son was being operated on and your wife was sitting by herself in a hospital waiting room?”“Don’t you touch me Get your Ky stained hands off me”“I went to Dallas for one day Jen to tell Ky face to face that it was over

  4. says:

    I couldn't put the book down and that is why the book gets 3 stars I hated Larry He was a pig not because he cheated on his wife phone sex is still sex taking someone's nipple in your mouth is still sex and touching someone's p is a sexual act even when half the people in our country say it is not but because of how he treated the poor dog his wife his friend He was a self centered asshole a dominant character in his life but with KY he was submissive to the core She knew how to play him Jenny was spineless for 99% of the story Only twice she showed a backbone; when she asked him to sleep in another bedroom after he came home from almost bedding his ex girlfriend and admitting it and when she finally told him off at the hotel room after their son's accidentI was floored to see how everyone was fine with Larry's behavior and expected it because Ky was a stunning exotic beauty He was like a clay in her hand She molded him as she wanted This was not a case of midlife crises in my opinion even though he was on the cusp of turning 40 He was just powerless when it came to this particular woman He forgot who he was what he believed and what he wanted He thought about having sex with her basically 247 The problem didn't start when she came back to his life it was always there He allowed her to dictate his life in high school who to see what sport to play what vacation to take etc She decided after seeing his picture and reading an article about his successful career that she wanted him back and she traveled from Dallas to Boston to hire his firm as her Tax accountant She cared less that he was happily married had children and he bowed right from the start he forgot who he was He was an asshole to his wife an asshole to the poor dog an asshole to their closest friend He started smoking a pack a day even though he hated cigarettes and used to lecture against it and was the reason few of his friends stopped the habit but hey Ky was smoking and he could feel closer to her by doing it He lied through his teeth he confessed to himself that majority of the crap coming out of his mouth were lies He embarrassed his wife during few gathering by his open display of love affection and lust for KY and completely ignoring Jenny He gave KY the power to undermine his wife because of how he talked about her when KY walked to his office knowing well he had avoided seeing her “And what about you Larry? Tel me everything I’ve missed The rest of college what your work is like how your parents are doing your family”“Wow” He rubbed his hand across his forehead “Where to start? Okay at the first of it I guess I graduated third in my class”“I know” He swiveled sharply toward her “How did you know that?” “Did you think I could just forget you?” “I thought you had You wouldn’t take my calls” “You didn’t try all that long did you?” His jaw tightened Now was the time right now to ask the uestion but he couldn’t force it out so he plowed doggedly on “Well moving right along I joined this firm right out of school am now a partner and like it very much I have a house in Wellesley Hills a forty foot Bristol and by the way a wife and two children” Ky confessed when uestioned that she set him up by getting pregnant when she realized he wasn't calling as much and their relationship has turned cold Larry was dating other girls at Harvard at the time and was ready to break things off permanently But did he uestion her character's integrity and how manipulative she was? What about her admission on wanting him back now and her intention on destroying his wife and kids life? He cared less He saw someone who was exotic and knew how to dress and use makeup to accentuate what she had to look gorgeous someone different than his Yankee wife who would only wear bikini when they were on their boat and used minimum makeup and had a scholastic lifestyle and taste in clothing that matched spending most of her time in libraries doing research Things he appreciated very much in his wife before KY waltzed back in his office and demanded a second chance and for him to dump his wife Without consulting Larry Ky had an abortion in a shady clinic when Larry didn't get on his hands and knees and ask for her hand in marriage Did I mention KY'S dad was a renowned surgeon It wasn't like she had no understanding of medical world or resources So the baby was just a tool and when it didn't get the result she wanted she couldn't wait to get rid of it Larry called for weeks but KY was punishing him and not answering his calls so he gave up and went ahead with his life KY wasn't the kind of person to call him at that point because that meant losing power It backfired and she couldn't have a child but from what I saw she wasn't interested in a child She wanted to be the center of attention she wanted guys to worship the ground she walked on and people like that don't care for children unless they have a purpose Ky sure had no problem calling him and initiating phone sex the day after they met in his office which they french kissed and thus setting up a routine He of course followed her example and was staying in office until 11 pm with the excuse to Jenny out of blue busy accountant in Summertime He was calling KY and having phone sex with KY for two straight months whenever she was not in Boston Larry didn't show an ounce of guilt for his actions but he showed plenty of irritation toward anything and anyone who came between the time he spent with KY physically via phone or day dreaming about having sex with KyJenny allowed Larry and KY to get away with murder She gave her passenger seat to KY when they first met To me that was telling Ky you win I am a nobody and you can do as you pleased I won't cause trouble The exact thing Jenny did She allowed Larry to ignore her She allowed KY to dismiss her She allowed KY to manipulate her children She suffered internally but didn't stand up for herself She allowed Larry to be nasty to their friends so he could get out of their biweekly boat trips on weekends She allowed Larry and KY to publicly humiliate and embarrass her She sat there at the restaurant and listening to Larry telling her he can't chose between Ky and his family and she told him she will be there at home cooking his meal taking care of the house She was the kind of woman I despise The ones that makes it convenient for the man to cheat The ones that think displaying emotion outrage or demanding respect will influence the serenity of their family I call it Bullshit and as we saw their son was deeply effected by his father's actions What I consider was Jenny worse mistake is the time she who was a very private person and wouldn't even have the light on when making love allowed Larry to take her on the floor of a boathouse while their friend was just a few steps away knowing what was happening Larry shoved her panties off satisfied his need and walked away like she was a trash Jenny knew very well who was in his mind when he satisfied his urges she never called him on it The two and half weeks they were separated was a joke to me especially considering Jenny was staying in cape's with her son at the hospital after he had a surgery which reuired his stay for over a week of the two and half week Larry didn't lose anything He was allowed to walk right back into his life like he did nothing wrong Jenny was so grateful that she even initiated sex in the gazebo in bright daylight I think if the children were in college Larry would have ended his marriage to Jenny via a text after seeing KY in his office Also I am not sure if I believe Larry that he ended his relationship with KY After all he told us what a good pathological liar he has become He travels a lot KY travels a lot and as I said he had no power in that relationship If KY decided to keep him and see him out of town he would oblige Larry wasn't the kind of guy I could trust as he had no moral fiber

  5. says:

    I believe this is the nadir of cheating husband romances I don't see anything recoverable in the hero He's whiny self absorbed and indecisive The heroine should have fallen to her knees in gratitude for the opportunity to offload him on the OW while claiming a divorce settlement that could have included the marital home their boat and a huge chunk of his future earnings for child support Instead sheoh let's go to spoilertownview spoilerLarry and Ky were high school sweethearts The relationship started to cool off when they went to college on different coasts so Ky deliberately got pregnant in an attempt to keep her man Larry did not respond positively to the pregnancy and Ky convinced she was going to be left alone with an unwanted baby had a backalley abortion that left her unable to have children Larry tried to contact her after the abortion but she refused to see him Four years later Larry married Jenny They've been married for 15 years and have two kids a 12 year old daughter and a son on the brink of his fourteenth birthdayAfter 19 years apart Ky saw some article about Larry and decided to go on a manhunt by expanding her fashion design business from Dallas to Boston where Larry works and deliberately engaging Larry's firm Did I mention Larry's an accountant? The sexy never stops with this guy When Larry hears Ky is coming he takes his mother's advice and goes on an out of town business trip to avoid seeing her and stirring up old memories Ky sticks around until he returns and he is instantly slain by her smoldering sexuality Such a contrast to demure conservative Jenny Jenny who? Oh yeah his wife and the mother of his two childrenWhat follows is public humiliation for Jenny as Larry dotes on Ky in front of their friends business associates and children Jenny seethes but takes no effective action When she calls him on it afterwards in private Larry gets defensive butno resolution Ky goes back to Dallas and Larry spends late nights at the office basically having phone sex with her With Ky on the verge of returning to Boston to launch her new fashions Larry takes Jenny out to dinner for The TalkThis is the money scene for the book and one of the things I dislike most about it goes unacknowledged Larry chose a public venue for this conversation to deny Jenny the opportunity to express herself freely He knows she's not going to make a scene in a restaurant when he tells herI had no way of knowing that seeing Ky would hit me as hard as it didJenny I'm not sure what I'm asking except that you give me some time to work it out I can't just turn my back on her again I have to at least resolve things between usJenny I'm so fouled up I can't possibly express how sorry I am for hurting you I can't possibly express how sorry I am that this all started in the first place The problem is I also can't really promise you anything because I don't seem to have control over my own actions right nowheaddeskLarry's having a hard time resolving things with Ky because when he picks her up from the airport and takes her back to her hotel for sex images of Jenny Jenny? oh yeah his wife intrude on the moment But later Jenny's ACTUAL PRESENCE at another party honoring Ky doesn't prevent Larry from hanging all over Ky in public again Jenny leaves the party early accompanied by her son who is disgusted by the realization that dad is in love with another womanNow comes the part of the book I really hate Is it cheating? NO It's sailing Nearly an entire chapter is wasted on a detailed sailing trip to celebrate their son's birthday If the episode were about Larry and Jenny bonding through their shared love of sailing and their son I could understand why it's included But they share one conspiratorial smile early in the voyage then it's all about excessive drinking and what a failure Larry is as a human being I'm honestly not sure what this trip is doing here and I resent it because it takes up valuable page count that could have been spent on Larry's non existent grovel after his son has a medical emergency and Jenny kicks Larry out of their house for two weeks Oh Jenny if only you had done this over dinner in the restaurant I feel like maybe the bit where Larry is sailing the boat through the fog in an attempt to get his sick child to shore is supposed to be a metaphor for Larry coming out of his own Ky induced fog but that thought just nauseates me I don't care about Larry's dawning realizations I care about Larry apologizing to Jenny and being publicly shamed for being an assThe two week separation passes entirely off page All we know is that Larry has been seeing the kids regularly their reaction to their parents' separation is not sharedmajor narrative fail and when Jenny called his office to tell him she was ready to talk about the future Larry was in Dallas sad tromboneSo Larry shows up at their home while the kids are out and he tells Jenny his trip to Dallas was to end things with Ky face to face TMI Larry No one cares if you prefer missionary to doggy style He loves Jenny and he now realizes that his emotions toward Ky were confused because he never got a chance to apologize for being a jerk about the pregnancy Jenny relieved to have her jerk back initiates outdoor sex in their gazeboGirlfriend nookie was a rookie move The man owes you penance not penis hide spoiler

  6. says:

    pain angst and all it was a riveting read I really wish the ending had lived up to the rest of the book It was rushed and unsatisfying The H is not redeemed in my eyes

  7. says:

    EDIT How could I forget their son Rick? I only wish there had been a chance for Rick to direct that uestion about loving Ky to his dad I seriously think things with Ky would have ended MUCH soonerFreaking idiot TSTL for sureUmmwhat a powerful angsty uick read OMGoodness I felt the pain confusion and anger of the heroine and the hero Of course the hero was a big old poop head who let his guilt rule his 'nads but hey we wouldn't have a book otherwiseI will say that despite a practical score he did not consummate his affair but an affair he did have I can't say if it was worse or not because I couldn't live with either but the way the OW manipulated the hero and even one of his two children was just wrongI did believe the ending rushed It did not do justice to the rest of the book and did he grovel or did I just miss it?I recommend this book to anyone wanting a nice full on angst wo consummation cheating book

  8. says:

    Great angsty marriage in peril storyThis could have been a five star book but the ending felt rushed

  9. says:

    Very Good readit was full of tensionangsty both Jen and Larry were TSTLLarry is one stupid weak jerkhe did not redeem in my eyesEven if he did not get physical with Ky but it was an emotional cheating with kissing involvedMy anger only melted a little cause inspite the way Ky tried to lure him he still said NOhe could'nt do it to Jenshe deserves my loyalty least he had this much of decency but this did not excuse his emotional affair with KyThe ending was really rushed and there was no grovelling which spoiled the book for meIt is a 3 star read for me but giving extra cause the author brought out all the emotions really well may it be confusionangerhurtpaindisappointment or resentmentThe fault for the way their marriage went on rocky patch falls both on Jen Larryi firmly believe that any outside person cannot come in between your relation if it is really strong but if the person himher is successful in coming in between then the fault lies within that two persons who are in the relationshipnot with that third personEvery relationship has problems but using that as an excuse to stray physically or emotionally its unforgivable IMOHere Larry was the one confused weak jerkKy took full advantage of his confused emotions and manipulated him like a puppet and Jen her fault was she let Larry off the hook inspite of knowing he is lyingshe understood what was happening yet when Larry kept on asking for her to wait she gave him that timeThis book played havoc with my emotionsi enjoyed the book very much inspite of rushed endingWant to read of this authorstarted hunting for other booksRecommend it

  10. says:

    This is one of my favourite story lines it's angsty and I like to see how the writer can put two people through something like that and still have them come out whole on the other sideBut this book just left me hating LarryDespite being blissfully happy with his wife of 19 years mother of his 2 children Larry embarks on what feels like a 4 month affair with his high school girlfriend in full knowledge of his wife all their friends and even their 14 year old sonAt the beginning of the book Larry talks about never wanting to hurt Jenny and by the end he just doesn't care about Jenny Even tells her what's going on with him and the ow and asks his wife to wait for him to make a decision on who he actually loves The kicker? She says OKWowBut somehow in the space of the last 20 pages we get a lightening flash realisation after his son falls off a boat that the ow was a simple case of mid life crises who he didn't even love in the first place seeing as he dumped her 20 years ago And just like that all is forgiven with no serious harm to their marriage Yeah right

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